Umm...

I'm watching a show on channel 4 called
One born every minute.
It's women giving birth...
I'm not sure it's a good idea for me to watch this.
I kinda had this idea that it would be all nice and
sweet and aww, look a baby.
But it's all pain and grunting and horribleness.
And babies of course.
And of course I know that childbirth is not fluffy
cotton candy and summer meadows ans pink roses.
It's bloody and messy and painful.
And things go wrong...

I'm not sure what I'm getting at.
Just I don't think this is helping
my fear of childbirth...

sab x