It's a free bag innit?!

Went to Goldsmiths university for an applicants day today. It lasted from 12-5 pm and of that I'd say about 2hrs were spent in any productive way. I was actually quite unimpressed by the whole thing. When I went to the open day at Queen Mary uni I came away with a great feeling about the place. A real "yeah, I want to study here" kind of feeling. Didn't get that from Goldsmiths.
I did get a canvas bag and various bits of chocolate. So the day wasn't a complete waste!

I can be organised if I want to be

I like to tick things of my to do list/hand when they're done.

Number one!

After a lot of waiting and a delivery that perhaps did not go as smoothly as my darling sister had hoped, her beautiful daughter, my niece, finally arrived at 03.02 on Friday the 17th.
And she promptly stole my heart.
She is the most perfect thing I have ever seen, and so fascinating even though she doesn't do much.

I still can't quite get my head around my sister being a mum. When she says things like "my daughter" I think "You can't possibly have a daughter, you're just a baby yourself!" It feels a bit surreal, like it's all just pretend!

And my heart aches every minute I am away from this miracle. It has now been 3 days since I last saw her, held her, stroked her soft skin. And with this cold/flu/black death that has taken hold of my body it will be a while before I see her again. I am counting the minutes!

Breaking the fast

I confess, I have jumped on the smoothie bandwagon. Mainly because I'm not very good at eating breakfast (as in I don't) so on the days I'm at college I always find myself starving just before my first lesson and end up buying a chocolate croissant or similar. So in an effort to be more healthy and save some pennies I have started making smoothies that I can take with me and drink on my way there or during the morning lesson.

I just blend some fruit, natural yoghurt and a scoop of protein powder. That way I get some of my 5 a day, calcium and protein. And they're also really filling!

I am still in the process of trying out flavour combination, one of the problems being that I don't like bananas. Today's smoothie is apple and kiwi. I also added some apple juice for a bit of extra sweetness and to make it less thick.
Yum!

The wall

I have hit it...

With renewed motivation (aided by a couple of uni offers) I have attacked my coursework full on. All day has been spent on my laptop writing and rewriting essays, source analyses, overviews etc. I actually started around six in the AM, not by choice mind you. I had been tossing and turning for over an hour trying to get back to sleep, but to no avail. So I made myself a cup of tea and got to work. Around nine I managed to nap for about an hour, around two I watched some Sons of Anarchy (that show was made for me!) and at 4-ish I went out and got myself a veggie delite from subway. Apart from that it has been all work...
And now my brain has stopped working.
I still have to write up the answers to my interview questions and then analyse both questions and answers. And I was hoping to get a bit more of my literature essay done to try and avoid an all-nighter tomorrow.
So I'm going to allow myself a little break. Maybe some trash tv, liquorice allsorts, salty sticks, caffeine free diet coke and snus will reinvigorate my tired mind.

At least my printer is working again. That shit was doing my head in...

Stress and stuff

Everybody deals with stress in different ways.
This seems to be how my body deals with it (without my consent): massive acne outbreak threatening to turn me into pizza face; left shoulder + neck suddenly, and without warning or reason, spasming and seizing up, causing almost unbearable pain and an inability to move left arm or head + shoulder.
I'm now on my third day with neck/shoulder pain. It has gradually gotten a bit better, for instance I no longer need to keep my left shoulder pulled up and my head tilted to the left to keep from crying in pain (yay!) and I can move my head and arm relatively freely. Still hurts like a bitch. Ibuprofen and heat patches are keeping me sane.

And now I have to crawl back into the cave of never-ending schoolwork where I have spent the last week or so. And try not to cry...

Hey Ho Hey Ho

Off to school I go. New literature unit starting today. I can't remember if it's poetry or Shakespeare's Macbeth. Should be fun either way. I just wish they'd stop ruining the fun by making us write essays!