All change

I have mixed feelings about my life at the moment.
I'm happy and relieved that I've finished college (with acceptable grades) and survived the nine months of working and studying. At the same time it feels sad to think that I'm never going back there again. I did have fun and I met so many wonderful people and while I know for a fact that I will stay in touch with many of them, many others are going to unis in other parts of the country and others are not the kind of friends I hang out with outside of school but spent a lot of time with in college and whom I will miss.
I'm happy to have some actual free time now, and I get so bored with all this time on my hands.
I'm so excited about going to university in September and my knees turn to jelly when I think of this big step. Will it meet my expectations? Will I make friends? Will I be the old fart surrounded by bright eyed 18 year olds?
I'm looking forward to finally getting on and moving forward with my life, and I'm reduced to tears when I think of leaving the children I have looked after for so many years and whom I have seen grow up.
I can't wait to have my own home and no longer be a live-in nanny, but I worry about how I will manage financially.

Mos

My head is spinning. I know it will be fine. I am constantly freaking out.

Grey

I am only wearing white, grey and black today (yes even socks and underwear). This greyscale look was not a conscious decision, probably more of a reflection on the predominant colours in my wardrobe.

Today is the last time my class is together at college. A bit sad, if I'm honest. I've brought a cake to celebrate the fact that we've survived and to mark the fact that we are now on our way to even bigger and better things!

Take two for uploading photo!

Low carb chocolate muffins

Today, while my sister was at the gym and I was babysitting my favourite Una, I decided to experiment further with oopsies. We had been talking about making them as chocolate muffins so I thought I'd surprise her, ambitious I know! Even though Una woke up I managed to pull it off. I followed the recipe for basic oopsies and chucked in some extra stuff. I don't have an exact recipe as it was very much a case of tasting and adding more but these are the broad strokes:

2 egg whites

2 egg yolks

60ish grams plain cream cheese

2 tsp honey

1-2 tbsp cocoa powder

1-2 tbsp ground almonds

Dark chocolate

Beat egg whites stiff as if making meringue. In a separate bowl mix all the other ingredients, tasting as you go. Fold a spoonful of the egg whites into the mixture then fold the mixture into the eggwhites. Dollop into a muffin pan, mine made nine, and finely grate some dark chocolate over the top.

Bake for about 30 mins on gas mark 2/150 degrees then turn the oven off and leave the muffins to cool in the oven with the door propped up.

I served mine with a dollop of whipped cream and some fresh berries. Delicious!

Last night

My sis' friend is here and last night we went for a little night out. First stop Mexican food, second stop hula bar, third stop home. It was short but sweet!

Pill-popper

My evening snack tonight consisted of antibiotics, paracetamol and ADs.

I freaking hate swallowing pills and I'm really rubbish at it too...

I finished off with a swig of cough medicine.

Today, after 4 days of fever, my temperature has been normal. Yay for that! I don't know if it's the ABs or just the chest infection running its course. I just wish the cough would go to...

What did you do last weekend?